Being alone

I have not been alone for 10 years now.  I do not even know what it feels like, to be alone. And im not talking about 1 hour at the gym, alone.  Or at the grocery store, alone.  

I mean a single life.  

I got pregnant when I was 20.  I didn't know what life was.  Heck, I wasnt even old enough to drink at the bar!  
I've been reading a lot of blogs lately.  Girls, who are still in college.  That live in an apartment.  That do daily activities.  Alone.  They even have scheduled timeline to prove it.  

 I have been alone before.  On vacation.  Out at the bar.  I don't even know what to do with myself.  It makes me feel as if I missing something.  

That I need to be constantly needed.  Make dinner.  Help with homework.  Bath bodies.  Tie shoes.  Walk to the bus.  I really do not know what or how to be alone.

I am not complaining .  I love my life.  I am happy.  I just think sometimes.  Think about the what ifs?  And being alone.  Is one I cannot do.